This zine is about attempts at dealing with sexual violence, the politics behind it and the practice of it. It is also, in many ways, an apology. It is an apology to the people who I have caused harm to or been a part of causing harm to in the name of accountability/justice. It is also an attempt to put forward a thoughtful, informed and respectful argument for changing the way that these issues are dealt with in my community. I think transformative justice is important. I also think that the way it is practiced in many activist communities is harmful and it si important to acknowledge and minimize this harm. A lot of the writing and speaking about transformative justice (TJ) and community accountability (CA) that I have across is quite self-congratulatory. I think it is important to celebrate. But I also think it is important to be critical of our actions and work towards improvement.